we premiered in rotterdam last night. 

rotterdam is bizarro. they call it the netherlands' capital of architecture. because i mean, you have to come up with a lot of new buildings when germans bomb he crap out of you. but the architecture is so drab and depressing. it makes me want to stay in my hotel room and sleep all the time. i will probably take a day trip to amsterdam on sunday because i have the day off.  i need pretty dutch-ness. 

on top of this boringness, the guys in the company, anne, and i have formed a band. mind you, all songs are made on garageband and are mainly inspired by other substances. but amazingly enough some of the songs are awesome. very dirty projectors. ok. definitely not that good. let me just say, i am a robot voice on one of them. yes. and a british robot, nonetheless.

after the premiere last night we had a talk back. and the woman interviewing the company said that when i came out to bow she was shocked. because i am in costume and am completely unidentifiable, she thought, by my wicked dancing kills, that i was a black man. it is easy to say that that was one of the greatest compliments i have ever received. 

yep.

hi jess.

i need sleep

i leave for amsterdam in 5 days again. actually looking forward to it as after that, i get to fly to chicago for a week and see my best friend who i have not seen for almost a year.

hung out with maps and atlases this weekend in a beautiful part of brooklyn i had never visited. going to hang in brussels. blush.

and i love this triangle i have going. pattern is movement talk about the dynamos. the dynamos talk about maps and atlases. maps and atlases talk about pattern is movement. and i sit in the middle with love for all.

i waited...

...to get the new maps & atlases ep. joyous ecstasy now that i have it. my brain is always a fog after their shows. in that best "did i really just witness that" sense. and i will do it again friday. and maybe in belgium. let's see how stalkerish i can get...

the indie rock dance is the most interesting thing to me. it's like people want to dance, but restrain themselves and only either nod their head or do the violent heel thumping which could greatly damaged their knees. but oh well. just dance gosh darn it.

gross

superficiality is getting to me. i never wanted to live here because i didn't want to get caught up in all things material. i am sick of wanting new black shoes that i know i will never wear. come on. since when do i wear heels on weekdays. or ever. gross.

i went to this discussion thing last night concerning northern uganda. and then i realized just how ignorant people are. "kampala is industrialized. you never would have thought about it. but it is." this coming from a college sophomore's mouth. seriously? this just proves that it's not only ignorance of current states that needs to be remedied, but it's the ignorance of historical/political progression. there are sophomores in colleges that still think of africa as the dark continent where no "civilization" has taken hold? gross.

tomorrow. maps and atlases. one hundred percent not gross.

the only living girl in new york

been back in the country for 5 days now or so. and i have worked every day of that. i better be rolling in money soon or something. but all good things come to those wait. chris and andrew had a show when i was gone and have one coming up when i will be on tour again. which is why i couldn't manage them this fall. but they have a show at nyu tomorrow. nyu students coming back into town is so annoying. so i am going to crash their "welcome back" concert. and sit in the vip lounge with my boys. which is also awesome because i have wanted to see the french kicks for a while now and they are playing too. i have never listened to broken social scene, but have heard their name everywhere. we shall see. maps and atlases have 2 shows here next week. that's too much right? i can't just go and creepily stare at dave for two shows. or can i? 

trying to get my apartment back in order. and by back in order, i mean pack it up. i am here for a little more than two weeks, gone for another month, then i have to find a new apartment. thanks god. i am packing some crap up now so i can get pumped about finding a new place. it's going to be painful to find something, but i have now found a slew of 4 guys to help me. everyone keep their fingers crossed for greenpoint.

the rest of the tour was good. in austria we won the price for "best young directors" which includes 10,000 euros and a mont blanc pen worth approximately the same amount. ridiculous.

the netherlands? eh. not impressed. of course it was not the cool part. i go there next. but it was cold and i had to wear a coat and scarves. and then i came home to 80 plus degree weather. gross.